Today I am weary.
I am weary of my thoughts concerning the pain and heartache of this world.
I am saddened each time I read or hear about the news more and more as the days pass by.
Sometimes this fear of the world and what could happened consumes my thoughts before any action I take.
I was talking about this to one of my very best friends the other day and she told me that these horrible things that "could" happen, aren't anything that I can control.
To live in a state of fear and let it consume you, isn't living, and it isn't showing the Lord that you trust Him with your life and with the plans He has for you.
I think this is something that is very hard for me, and as soon as I feel as if I'm letting the control of my life go, and into the Lord's hands..this feeling of wanting control comes back.
This is something I dealt with a lot in Colorado last Summer.
I think this is just one of my many struggles that, obviously, won't be connected to any sort of "formula."
I think that's why the Lord's relationship with us is so special.
Getting to a certain point with the Lord isn't enough.
Pursuing Him daily even in the confusion, heartache, pain, and anger is.
Today, I'm taking a breath, and stepping back from being so "quick to anger."
Today I am digging in to 2 Corinthians and letting God breathed word sink in to my yearning soul.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."